This weekend I looked closely at it and noticed that its limbs were severing from the trunk. I had noticed something earlier but then suddenly in a matter of a few days it lost the majority of its branches. When it came here to Prescott it had a much different shape…now it is drooping and seems destined to melt into its earth
or completely grow in a different direction.
Years ago in an intimate relationship I had, this man had a huge and vibrant jade tree when I met him. A branch of it was on his dashboard on our first meeting and it was forefront in celebrations and sweet moments in our time together. In fact, he used to sometimes call me
Ms. Jade Tree.
After nearly 7 years of a beautiful relationship together, when things began to crumble between us, the jade tree began to lose its limbs…it too slowly melted into its earth and by the time I left there was little left of its original form.
I too, was changing shape..
As I’ve shared with you, in my recent process of revisioning my work, I’ve been given an unanticipated plunge into the abyss of change. These dives are always challenging, AND often require a falling apart. While my mind went through its shifting, my body too, went all out of whack and then this weekend I got the outer echo…of course!! My jade tree too was going to join in the fun. It fell apart!
Because I have attended to the nature of change and transforming in such a focused way for so long, it is becoming more and more familiar to me and sometimes I even have a sense of humor for this mystery’s antics…even while in the pain and strain of it.
Seldom are we reminded that a part of this process… both in the strange bare boned embodiment of the severing from our previous ways that we must endure, and then in the arising and busting through the crusted soil into the visible world with our new selves and vision, we are also faced with loss…and more. Often our new shiny selves are too bright for our old relationships and there can be jealousy, judgement, even a loss of the relationship. We lose our limbs sometimes…both in the descent and in the ascent. We are reshaped by unexpected forces that temper the heart.
I have seen people ridiculed or dissuaded by the ones in their lives that are fearful of this change, or not courageous enough to live their soul into the world…
This can be a lonely place.
The consolation is, for me, that my soul is now even more intact and we are in a more vital and vibrant and utterly verdant courtship.
This is nourishing for me and for that earth I laid my broken body into….
AND jade branches (and your branches) reroot easily in new soil….
so watch out world!!
~~please stay tuned for the launching of my new business website THIS WEEK!!
I’ll send out a birth announcement!!